Your gift

This precious gift you offer shouldn’t feel like a sacrifice because it nurtures me carrying me through all those slow hours of every day It bathes me in a warmth so deep and intense and simultaneously, unwaveringly secure I am alert, always to what it costs me Because you make me want to hold on…

Silk threads

Between that old world and now lies an intangible half-truth of apparent idyll in muted tones captured in soft focus so we didn’t have to let them go. Those welcome days were real Enough that I could once feel their warm shadows and hold them close. In lonely desperation, I grasp those threads of silk…

To fight

Reaching to the character concealed within the type black beneath the white coiled close, knitted tight She waits to fight. In the depths of a soul ransacked raging to be whole She’ll embrace a shattered heart and gathering she’ll start To fight. Imperceptibly, she dares inhales surfacing, laid bare shame and horror Now to care…

Embracing my fire tiger

It’s Chinese new year on Monday, the year of the Monkey. That inspired me to look up my zodiac animal. Google tells me I’m a fire tiger. I am quite happy with that. Ferocious and powerful. Tigers are stunning animals. If you’ve been following my blog, you’ll know that I’ve had a tough few weeks. I’m…

First steps

Tiny sparkles of afterlife are intruding in this bleak solitude and they are so alien I almost resist them because I’ve somehow forgotten what it means to be in this life here and now without fear free from anger or grief Just to realise that in this moment I am living and changing Maybe inertia…