What are sleep terrors?

Sleep terrors are not nightmares. I can safely assert this because I have experienced plenty of both. Nightmares tend to have a narrative; they are frightening or disturbing or gory. You wake from a nightmare feeling scared but knowing what occurred was a bad dream. You turn on the light, get a cuddle if you’re…

My stubborn psychiatrist

It seems that any new doctor wants to put his/her stamp on a person’s treatment. They don’t like just carrying on the same. A Dutch colleague of mine refers to this as ‘pissing on’ things. Our CEO likes to ‘piss on’ everything at work, marking it as his territory even if he knows nothing about…

16 Days sober

A short while ago I had a major relapse. By ‘relapse’ I mean I drank half a litre of vodka, took a lot of pills and landed myself in hospital. So I was back to square one with the whole sobriety effort. I’ve been sober for just over two weeks. I’ve even resisted the always alluring…

No rest in sleep

I awake panicked and drenched in sweat. The duvet clings to me and I feel suffocated. As usual, dreaming is the catalyst for this dramatic start to the day. My dreams are filled with fear, humiliation, frustration and loneliness. I am so used to these nightmares, I barely notice them anymore. The worst part is…