A few days in the North

The weekend away was a mixed bag. I struggled being away from my home comforts, my usual safe place and my routine. I cried in public quite a bit. But despite all that it was good to be somewhere new and get out in the fresh air. We managed some wet and windy walks and…

Please tell me how to get through this

This is a plea for advice. The reasons why are a lot to go into, and I haven’t got the energy for explaining right now. But the short story is I’ve suddenly found myself smack in the middle of intense emotional pain. It feels like huge, heavy, overwhelming grief. It is completely unbearable. I keep…

A letter I’m sending to my psychiatrist

Dear Dr L I am writing to inform you that I wish to be discharged from your care. I will not be attending my planned appointment on 13th July. After our last meeting I was very upset. I felt that you didn’t listen to me and didn’t give me the opportunity to explain what was…

Quitting my psychiatrist

A few weeks after I see Dr L, I receive a copy of his notes on our meeting in the post. I’ve so far appreciated this (apart from when the letter went to a neighbour by accident), as it keeps me in the loop with what he is recording from our conversations. I was unsure…

What does therapy mean to you?

Until recently I’d assumed that we all go to therapy because we simply want to feel better. But I think there are a multitude of reasons people go – and keep going even when it is really tough. I’m interested to hear about how others experience this; what motivates you to keep going to sessions…

I can’t force myself

Why does therapy have to be so hard? Why can’t it just be easy to talk about all the stuff that needs talking about? We’d all be a lot healthier that way. But then I suppose we wouldn’t need therapy in the first place… I’m so tired this evening. I’m tired of trying and I’m…