Family: Old and new

At the moment, I’ve got one tiny new family member, and a very frail old one who are both very much on my mind. Neither of them is closely connected to the emotional difficulties I have with my family (least of all the new little one), so I find it easier to feel caring towards…

Falling for tomorrow

I know how it feels to take a fall I know what it is to lose it all When the walls are closing in There’s no simple way to win So my night is day is night And every step’s a fight Please don’t say I can’t rewrite What’s gone down in black and white…

35 days sober

And so the counting continues. When I got to 100 days a while ago, I thought I could begin to move beyond the ‘one day at a time’ mentality. But as soon as I thought I’d cracked it, I went and had a drink. It’s probably self-sabotage, but there were a number of other factors…

Tips for getting the most from group therapy

Group therapy is something we’re not all that accustomed to in the UK. We’ve barely got our heads around doing therapy individually, so it isn’t surprising that baring your soul in a group evokes trepidation. Before being admitted to a psychiatric hospital last year, my only experience of group therapy was as a child in…

Therapy today: When they found out

It was the day that my world shattered. Everything I thought I knew changed. All that I believed about my young self slipped away from me. At that pivotal moment, my soul was annihilated. It was only a minute, but it has lived on in my mind ever since. I feel as though I have…

Wednesday soundtrack: Behind blue eyes

When my fist clenches, crack it open Before I use it and lose my cool When I smile, please tell me some bad news Before I laugh and act like a fool If I swallow anything evil Put your finger down my throat If I shiver, please give me a blanket Keep me warm, let…