Escape fantasy

The fantasy of escape takes up a lot of space in my imagination. This borderline obsession has resided in me for at least three years. I’ve made non-committal efforts to dislodge it, and had short-lived success here and there. Those little pushes aren’t significant though, because in truth, I know it will always be a…

I would be gone

This rush has derailed me and I’m left with an intangible company of shadows, inert Like blood dropped in water we grow weak and pale and the scarlet impact dissipates. If I had a god, I would pray to be taken somewhere far from the confines of myself. My god would show me a place I can swim, where the…

Depression: A spiritual disease

Don’t worry, I’m not about to go all evangelical on you. Religion just isn’t me. I’ve thought about it, but I can’t be persuaded by any of those doctrines. I flirted briefly with Buddhism, but came unstuck on the karma stuff. I’m too much of a cynic for any of that. Plus I don’t want…

Today I found out what grief is

This morning, a friend greeted me outside the office looking very serious. We had a smoke together and he told me the awful news. A friend and colleague passed away at the weekend. He wasn’t a lot older than me, and he’s left a wife and two small children behind. On hearing this, I didn’t feel…

Do you have death anxiety?

I like Irvin Yalom. He seems like a good guy. I know every therapist I’ve ever spoken to adores him. After doing therapy for a while now, I can see the benefit of his common sense approach, based on empathy and being genuine. I’ve been reading Yalom’s ‘Creatures of a Day’. I don’t like it…