The upside of addiction

I’ve learned in the past few years that I have a fairly addictive personality. I think that happens to a lot of us when we struggle. We get into patterns of sedating or distracting ourselves to avoid how we feel. Aside from the really unhealthy substance addictions, I have also been addicted to self-harm. It’s…

Contentment in Copenhagen

Work travel again. This time I’ve actually been having fun. Normally being on my own all day would put me in a dreadful mood, but I’d forgotten what a great city Copenhagen is. And it’s even better in the festive season. I walked miles and miles tonight; just people watching, taking photos, smoking and drinking hot…

Therapy today: Insecurity and dread

Despite my instincts telling me otherwise, I knew logically that it was a good idea to go to therapy today. It was fear making me want to back out. I was scared of having to go and tell J how much she’d upset me last week when she told me she’s away for most of next…

Painting to escape Christmas

I did a bit of painting in an attempt to switch off from Christmas. It worked for a short while. I visited a few galleries while I was in the Canadian Rockies. If you’re ever in the area, I can highly recommend Canmore for a wander about. It is not too far from Banff, but much less touristy….

Not coping

I feel like I’ve started on a downward spiral again. I’m away on holiday, so I can’t understand why I feel so desperately low. I hate myself.  I have no cause to complain, but that makes me feel even worse. Talk about first world problems. I think maybe I was pushing hard to get through Christmas….

Here’s to surviving Christmas

I just wanted to post something short, to say please don’t be lonely. Christmas is a tough time for so many people. I’ve taken inspiration from a friend who put up a post asking people to leave a message if they are feeling lonely. I’m doing the same. I’ll be online most of the day,…