I’ve been finding it difficult to start writing recently. That’s not because I have nothing to say. I think I’ve just shut down and cut off. That felt like the best way to get through Christmas, and it also often happens when I’ve got a therapy break. I have an unsettling sense that I’m only…
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We’ve reached the other side
Christmas has been and gone and I am relieved. All that horrendous, over-hyped build up came to its usual disappointing crescendo and instantly faded in the customary anti-climax by the afternoon of the 25th. I had thoroughly de-Christmassed my house by lunchtime on Boxing Day. That’s all very cynical, but I think being a grinch…
Codependency, nostalgia and Christmas
Dreading Christmas was something I fully expected. I’ve spent the build up to this weekend hating the excitement and business around me. The more frenzied it all got, the more I wanted to crawl into a hole and wait there until January. But the C-day has arrived and I am actually feeling alright about it….
A few more Christmas crafts
I don’t have much to say today. I am largely avoiding stopping for long enough to think about how I feel. The weekend was long and miserable. I felt agitated, grumpy and emotional. Strangely for me, I kept getting tearful for no particular reason. I’m scared I will sink into that again if I’m not…
Goodbye hyperactivity. Hello depression.
My mood has completely sunk today. For the past week I’ve been running on a sort of anxious energy. That doesn’t feel great, because it’s a hyperactive and insecure place. But I was coping with it because I could keep myself busy and not get dragged into my usual cycle of depressive thoughts. While that…
Impending family visit. Help.
My week is panning out to be full on and I’m not coping well with that idea. A few days ago I wrote about needing to fill time in order to avoid sinking into dark and destructive thoughts. The problem is, I’m running out of energy and now I am faced with a load of…
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