I’ve just got home from therapy and I’m feeling fragile. I can’t stop myself from crying. I cried in the session, then while I cycled home, and I’m still tearful as I write this. I don’t know why this has all come up now.
I very rarely get tearful. But it’s really hard to cope with feeling like this when I’m on my own. My wife doesn’t get home from work for another hour. I don’t feel suicidal. I don’t feel like self-harming. I just want someone to hold me while I feel like this, and tell me that it is going to pass.
I want to be kept safe while whatever pain this is moves through me.
It’s such a deep and wrenching sadness.