I’ve not written in a while. I intended to share something about the lovely holiday I had when I returned last week, but everything has really gone downhill since. In summary; the police have decided to drop the case against my brother. I received this news the day after the holiday, so it did a great job of wiping out all the good days I’d had.
On Friday, the Detective who had been investigating came over to explain the decision to us. It transpired they had found a file from the Sex Offenders Register that detailed what my brother admitted back in 1997. Even though he admitted the extent of the abuse, he was only cautioned. Because of this, he’s technically been prosecuted for all offences already and we can’t legally pursue him for any of it now.
The Detective also shared with me the account I gave to the social worker when I was 11. It included some stuff I had until now blanked out, so that was tough. It was horrible hearing the transcript of my child’s description of what he subjected me to. And hearing how sad I was that he apparently didn’t like me anymore after my parents found out. I told the social worker that I just wanted him to be my friend again.
There was no explanation in the paperwork of why the authorities had handled him so leniently at the time, so I won’t ever get an answer on that. I will also never know why they didn’t remove him from our family home.
I’m now left feeling massively angry and disappointed. I feel unimportant. I feel stupid for even trying to get justice for myself. And I feel sick thinking of how happy he will be to know he’s got away with it. I don’t know how to be OK with something so wrong, so unfair. The world feels like a really horrible place right now.
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My dear friend Hugs and love to you. xxxx
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I’m so sorry that happened…wish you all the best!
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Oh gosh, this is just awful. Sending you a million hugs. There is no justice in this 😦 The legal system can be so crappy, and I am so gutted for you. I hope there is another way forward, but for now all I think you can do is process this and have a million hugs from me. I am literally so gutted for you 😦 xxx
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I am so sorry that the the police dropped your case. It must be hugely disappointing. At least you rattled your brother and now his wife knows to keep an eye on him around their child.
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I’m so sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of support as you work through this terrible disapointment and lack of justice.
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This is outrageous. Straight up outrageous. That made me feel some heat for real because there should be justice for you and that 11 year old girl who did nothing wrong.
Sending you support and heat toward the people and the system that has failed you.
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I’m so sorry. Sending love and support.
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Thanks everyone for the kind wishes. Your support means a lot to me.
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I have a great deal of respect and admiration for you, that you took this as far as you could. In my eyes you are a leader with courage, strength and dignity…a winner and a success. I applaud you.
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