If you haven’t listened to Bastille, you really should. The vocals are raw and the lyrics have so much impact. Tonight this song hit me right in the stomach.

I thought I was doing OK. I’ve been keeping myself so busy. Ignoring the fact that I’ve got a miserable cold and I should really rest; I’ve cleaned all there is to clean, repaired a fence, built some flower beds, tackled massive hedges and taken all the associated debris to the dump.

But listening to this track tonight brought home to me that a week ago I lost a friend. It evoked a powerful, deep sadness in me. I’m scared of that feeling. I’ve been managing things a bit better, but I know I’m on thin ice. So I will carry on working and doing and distracting. Maybe then I can keep my head above water.