When I disowned my brother on account of the fact he traumatised me with sexual abuse at the age of ten, I wrote to him. I explained across pages and pages how I felt and the damage he has done. I took weeks to carefully craft something that really explained what I felt. I poured my heart out. You can read the letter here.
Today I received his response. On a single side of A5 paper. Just this pathetic paragraph. I’m not sure why I was surprised.
There are no words I can find to say how sorry I am, nor can I provide you a reason or explanation as I just can’t find one. I am guilty of some terrible things that I did to you and none of those things were your fault. I dearly wish I could take them back but I can’t. Every day I wake and feel the guilt and remorse for those things and for what I put you through – then now and forever more. These emotions are always with me and I am truly sorry for the pain I have caused you.
I hope one day you will be able to find some forgiveness towards me, although I would understand if you cannot.