I tried to kill myself on Friday. It isn’t something I am proud of. I drank a bottle of vodka and swallowed a load of pills. I didn’t expect to survive, so I wrote a short note here to say goodbye.
I want to apologise for any upset that post might have caused. I wasn’t thinking straight, I was in a very dissociated state. The people I interact with through this blog have become like friends to me, and I don’t want to cause them worry.
When I got home from the hospital, I was quite overwhelmed to read the messages and words of kindness you had all sent to me. It was unexpected, and it helped me draw some strength. The last few days have really wiped me out, but I will be writing again soon. For now, I’m going to cuddle my dog and watch daytime TV.